I hope you think of me when you shouldn’t
I hope you miss me when you shouldn’t
I hope you love me when you shouldn’t
I hope we end up together even when tho we shouldn’t
New year, but I still miss you.
New year, but I still love you.
New year, but still the same hurt.
New year, but I wish I didn’t feel like this anymore.
Maybe you don’t end up with the person your heart chooses. Maybe that’s not how life works. Maybe you don’t get what you want. Maybe you end up finding what you need, and maybe the universe knows what you need more than you do.
Maybe love changes. Maybe it goes from “I’ll wait up and call you after work,” to “I’m going to sleep, I’m tired.” Maybe it goes from “You have nothing to worry about,” to “I really wish you didn’t overthink so much.” And maybe it goes from “I choose you,” to “I have to choose myself right now.”
Maybe love isn’t one of those things that grows with certain people. Maybe you become too big for it. Maybe it becomes too uncomfortable, too small for who you change into. Maybe it’s like that sweater you always loved growing up, or your childhood bed. You learn to appreciate it for what it was, but you come to terms with the fact that you have outgrown it. You learn to let it go.
And maybe letting go of love isn’t some loud celebration at the end of a dark tunnel. Maybe letting go is the moment you decide that you can no longer keep the past alive inside of you. Maybe it is quiet, maybe there is no checklist, or way of telling if it has actually happened.
Maybe it is simply just you learning how to release your grip, how to let things be, how to lay down your arms. Maybe that is how it’s done — in the silence of it all, in the calmness of daily life.
It’s time to learn that maybe walking away is the best thing you can do for yourself, and for the person you love. Maybe walking away is you making peace with the fact that things and people change. Maybe it is the bravest thing you’ve ever done.
Maybe, when you walk away, you’re not making a mistake. Maybe, when you walk away, your life is just beginning.
(via gulberojk)
You make me unbelievably sad.. but incredibly happy when we’re together. Sadly we’ve always been farther away than together.
Everything reminds me of you. Past conversations, songs, tv shows and movies. I love you so much, but you care for me so little.
It hurts. It’s always gonna hurt. Coming last to you isn’t new but fuck it hurts so much still. I thought I’d be okay without you, but lying to myself is a specialty I’ve mastered.
It was supposed to be better this time around. I knew the fucking score. I knew you were gonna leave, but I didn’t protect myself from it. I didn’t keep you at arms length and I fell so hard for you. AGAIN. Like a fucking dumbass.
Why do we keep trying!? Why am I still in love with you?? Why must you tell me pretty things, and then not say anything the next day. I’m so done feeling this way, i wanna forget you.
I think about you every day, but you probably think of me so much fucking less.
Wish I didn’t love you. I wouldn’t have to miss you this much.
everything hurts.. everything reminds me of you. not even my favorite artist can soothe me rn cause you tainted even that.
why the fuck do you keep coming back for you to leave in a week? shit don’t even make sense. in reality Im the dumbass who keeps texting you back, but goddamn I can’t get over you. I fucking miss you til this day. don’t you miss me?
It only took three weeks of us talking before you left me again. I feel like the biggest fool. Why can’t I compartmentalize you? Why can’t I put you in a far box in the corner of my heart? I still wish you’d chose me after everything.. it’s so stupid. I’m so stupid. I deserve better than you but here I am waiting for you to love me the way I love you.
I’m tired of hurting. I’m tired of loving you. I’m so tired of you leaving. Why couldn’t I be enough? Why am I still in love with you? I wish you’d wake up and realize that you loved me the same. Wishful thinking never got me far when it comes to you.
Why do I keep falling for it? Why do you come back to me every fucking time and I fall for whatever you say? You weren’t divorcing her! You just wanted to make yourself feel better. Why does my heart keep breaking for you? I want to forget you so bad! I’m over this hurt. You need to get the fuck out of my life.
HAHAHAHAHA, my life is joke.
I’ve been waiting for you to come into my life again, and now that you have I’m having an internal crisis.
“Fuuuuuck, Im about to come,” has been my favorite thing to come out of your mouth
You know the saying, un clavo saca a otro clavo? Well that isn’t the case with you.. I miss you like crazy :( i hate you, but I fucking miss you! I wish you’d reach out, but also I hope to forget you.
Can’t believe it’s about to be a week since I saw you in months. You still make me so angry. All the hurt and betrayal is still there and I just want to hurt you so bad.
Why do I still love you? I just want to be over you. I want to stop thinking of you when I hear music. I want to stop thinking about you when I see something I know you’ll like. You’ve hurt me so much, so why can’t I seem to be over you??
why can’t I seem to get over you? what is this hold that you have over me? I desperately wish to forget you. my heart hurts so much, and I know there isn’t a part of you that even thinks about me.
i am so foolish to think about you, about what we had. goddamn why does my heart still hurt over you?
you know I sit here and wonder where everything went sideways. where you decided that you didn’t care a single shit about me. where you decided that I was the one who started all of this. where I was the one who forced you to be with me the last 3 years!
when I’ve never told you to leave your wife for me. when I was there for you through the absolute worst times of you miserable life!
and for some reason I still keep thinking that it’s all my fault. but it’s not. it’s yours too. when did you stop loving me? cause I know you did love me. you had too right? it couldn’t have all been just one sided.
why does it hurt so much still? after everything you’ve done, why does my heart keep breaking for you? im so goddamn angry with you, but im so fucking sad too.
You tried to ruin my life? For what? So you wouldn’t look like the bad guy? I fucking trusted you and I don’t deserve this kind of treatment. I can’t fucking believe you turned into this fucking asshole. I loved you, and you just threw away everything!